What if
your loneliness
pushed me
into a choice
I didn’t want to make yet.
What if,
as I look back on it,
I realize
I chose too soon.
What if
the crying
and goodbyeing
were caused by you thinking
in your mind
it would probably
happen eventually.
What if
I was confused
again
about what I wanted,
where I wanted to live,
how I wanted to be.
What if
you had said
nothing;
had let it play out;
had let me figure me out.
What if
you didn’t know
a few days later
that I’d look at your photos
and want to go
back
to where I was before,
before all the
what ifs
happened.
What if you
were wrong.
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Cyrano Writer: Musings of a Revolutionary Romantic Poet 
November 15, 2010 at 1:31 pm
What if / your narcissism / prevented you from taking / responsibility for your own / choices
November 15, 2010 at 1:47 pm
Interesting, Tara.
What if
you read the poem
and see
that 90% of it
IS me
taking responsibility,
accepting
that I wasn’t ready
to make choices,
and that
I maybe made the
wrong ones,
asking “her”
to accept
that I accepted
the mistakes I’d made.
Isn’t that
taking responsibility?
If that’s the case,
where is the narcissism?
And who are YOU
to call me that?